We made it past the pilot! This second edition has more structure, better content, and changes to the presentation of the weekly tip to be more readable over email.
Is This What a Senior Feels Like?
I’m finally settling into my new role @Heroku. Its the first role where I was hired directly as a senior-level engineer instead of being promoted up to one. This situation put quite a bit of pressure on me, and I wasn’t sure of the expectations compared to my previous position, where I had proven myself as a senior vs. being assumed to be one. Unfortunately, this led to some extra anxiety and stress that built up over time which put me into a situation that almost led to burnout before even finishing my onboarding.
I realized that much of my stress was self-inflicted. My manager and more senior engineers were telling me that I was doing fine for being new to the team, but I was still beating myself up. I realized that while my technical abilities were still adapting to my new team and their existing systems, I had to change my expectations and be realistic with what my early contributions were going to be. I have written about battling Imposter Syndrome before, and this new situation brought many of those feelings back. It’s impossible to be a rock star on day ten of a job, but it’s very easy to be a good team player on day one. Being a senior engineer is about the mindset just as much as the technical abilities. When I started, my immediate goals were trying to contribute as fast as possible, but I shifted them towards those based on community, relationship building, and learning the new systems & protocols around the team.